几年前，我在英国教书的时候，曾遇到过一个很特别的女孩。她是别人眼中的怪物，所有人都排斥她。因为她很丑、很笨、并且16岁才小学毕业。正因如此，我对她还特别关心。她妈妈死了，爸对她很不好，根本就不养她。她叫Tillie，那个可怜的孩子。在毕业那天，学校曾组织一个活动，要每个孩子，送给一个同班同学一张毕业留言。我们班23个人，22个人都好了，只有Tillie一人没有人送给她。我懂她的感受。我曾经被人排斥过，她受到伤害，却说不出口。Tillie低着头，她肯定哭了。下了课后，我发现桌上一张纸条。是Tillie的。
I
feel
really
lonely.
It's
like
the
whole
world
dislike
me.
I
really
want
to
be
a
part
of
them,
the
popular
ones.
but
I
can't.
I
wish
I
was
never
born.
Mum
said
that
I
was
lucky.
I
was
born
in
the
time
when
all
the
chaos
began.
All
the
other
babies
died,
except
me.
That's
why
I'm
so
ugly
and
so
stupid,
and
older
that
the
others
in
the
grade.
They
say
that
I
was
such
an
idiot,
that
I
couldn't
go
on
with
school.
I
feel
sad.
I
never
wanted
to
be
that
ugly,
that
stupid,
and
older
that
the
others.
But,
how
can
I
choose?
Is
there
any
use.
Now
mum
died.
The
only
one
that
I
once
loved.
It's
so
unfair,
how
all
the
people
are
better
than
you,
and
you're
so
unlucky.
My
mumu
is
a
nurse,
but
my
dad
is
so
bad.
He
doesn’t
have
a
proper
job,
and
he
alwany
get
drunk.
Mum
had
enough
of
him,
ao
we
moved
away.
Sometimes,
I
even
want
to
die.
I
have
nothing,
now
my
mum
has
died
of
a
disease.
Since
I
have
no
friends,
no
family,
I
have
nothing
to
care
about.
Sherry,
you’re
the
only
one
who
likes
me,
I
thank
you.
But
I’d
rather
you
not,
I
don’t
want
you
to
feel
pity
of
me.
I’m
going
to
go
to
a
far
away
land.,
where
nothing
is
harder
that
it
seems.
Everythings
so
happy
there.
Goodbye.
——Tillie
我看了，眼泪落下来，希望她不要干什么傻事。第二天，她没有来学校。第三天也没有。连着一个星期，她都没有消息。这件事，对整个学校都有影响，就连平时连靠都不愿靠近她的学生，都优点担心她了。学校去看Tillie的家，没有人。我也听Tillie讲过，他爸爸没有和她住。过了9天，学校报警了。结果很明显。Tillie自杀了，在给我留言里面写的“仙境”，原来是天堂。消息出来的那天，整个学校的反应都很大。他们全部都哭了。他们后悔了。可惜太晚……
这是几年前的事情，Tillie死后，我回国了。但是，我会永远记住——Tillie，那个可怜的孩子。
（乱写的。嘿嘿嘿嘿）